Hey guys!!!

Sowwy I havent posted in a while. I was grounded from going on the pc because I had "bad grades". I had a low B in Algebra....big deal!

Anywhoo.....let me update you on what has bee going on in my life since I last posted.

1. I made the talent show at my school!! I am doing a solo!! I will be singing Bottle It Up by Sara Bareilles. The talent show is this coming Thursday so I will keep you posted.
2. I think I love Xgyxj. Not entirely sure. But he is moving schools next year so it doesn't matter anywhoo
3. I came down with bronchitis. It started this morning and I have been fighting it off all day. I may not be able to do the talent show if I don't get over this quickly.
4. I was asked out today!! This kid at my school that I barely know asked me out. I had to say no, one bacause I really don't know him. Two because my rents would kill me!!
5. I think that pretty much sums it up!!

I will post more tomorrow!!

~E-Angel

I hate this!!

I haven't had friends over tomy house in ages because it is soo messy! My mom doesn't really help and neither does the rest of my family. My sister is the worst. The makes it worst. But I get yelled at because I "don't pick up"! Yes I do! I pick up more than anyone! GAH!!

~E-Angel

Vows..

I vow never to try being outgoing again. I got H and J mad at me today and Gods know who else.

I vow to be go back to being a book-absorbed wall flower.

*sigh*
~E-Angel

What if....

What if I'm not destined to be famous? What if my ocupation will be mother, not actress or singer? It certainly seems that way! I think my friends were in pain when I was singing today. And of of my bffs is going to a recording studio and didn't invite me. She and C are going!

What if I'm not meant to be an outgoing person? I have tried to become one and I don't like it. I just hurt people...

What if I'm not meant to live this life? What if the reason that I can't see my future is because I don't have one?

What if I never find true love? I'm tired of reading all of these love stories and pretending I'm fine! I want to be someone's Bella or someone's Ever! But looks like I'm destined to be "that weird kid" or "the shy girl".

What if my brain wasn't skrewed up? What then?? Would I be popular?? Would I be a bitch?? A slut?? A Bella?? Is it because I'm the class weirdo that I will never be the girl in the romance novel?

~E-Angel

I am a completly horrible person!!

My friends "R" dated this guy last year and she still kinda likes him. You know the unspoken rule. You can't date/like your friend's ex w/o their permission. I have sat with him in science for the past moth or two and I realized I kinda like him. At the same time I kinda have a smalish crush on two other guys!!
And as if my life couldn't get skrewy enough I am depressed agian. I have Green Day cranked up really loud on my PC and am crying inside. gah! Why does my life have to be so fucking messed up?? (pardon my language!)
~E-Angel

Sad News....

I am really sad. My best guy friend's mom has cancer..again. "Ms. D" was just in the hospital for colin cancer. They removed the cancer and she got out without haing to do chemo. Now she is back in the hospital with thyroid cancer!! The thing is...people don't normally survive thyroid cancer. The doctors say they think they can remove it...but still....I feel horrible. She was like my second mum. Her daughter was like a less annoying little sister and her son is my best guy friend. I don't know what I will do if...
~E-Angel

Answers...

Here are some of the answrs to some of the questions i asked yesterday...

"who is "j"? xDwho'd he call hispanic trash?

because once you see a guy, you're like obsessed with him to the point where we get tired of hearing
his name. then when someone else finds out, instead of acting all embarassed, you (in essence i guess) go up to him and say OMG DO YOU LIKE ME CUZ I LIKE YOU AND I REAAAAAAAAAAALLY WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU CUZ YOU'RE JUST SO AWESOME.

you asked.

E and A did what you would do if you were in their situation. plus when the dude hears the final copy, he'll say automatically no. believe me. xD

whatever cellulite is, you shouldn't care. you're just used to being superskinny from your stomach problem. you're fine. "

"J" is a kid that I haven't spoken to in years. End of story.

Thankz for telling me the truth *hugz*

Cellulite is body fat. I have too much!

"I wish you could have come and at least TRIED to control them. I'm really starting to not like either of them.I just wanna punch erin in the face. marissa too. but if i had a choice, i would punch erin first."

I with I could have been there too.

For all ya'll guys out there I asked Leah today if Erin hates me. Leah said that Erin thinks that I am a crazy werido so she hates me. Marissa agrees with everything Erin does when they are together. So even though Marissa and I are BFF's she hates me when they hang out. So they didn't invite me cuz they hate me.

Just for the record they made Leah pay for all the clothes they made her get! That is assinine! It is like $20 a shirt!!

~E-Angel

Left Out!?

Leah is a tom-boy and Me, Er, and MS wanted to give her a makeover. Well apparently they went without me today. They went to Forever 21 and did her makeup. It sounds like they had a lot of fun and I wish they had invited me. I'm 95% sure that i was the one that suggusted the whole makeover thing in the first place! *sigh* oh well...I mean I knew Erin and I wern't the best of friends....but MS and Leah! I 'm wondering why thy didn't call.

~E-Angel

Gah!!

Hey!! Sowwy I haven't posted in a while. I have had a shit load of homework all week. I guess the teachers are making up for the fact that we had state tests next week. *sigh* Well it made me all stressed out and crabby. And I was up so late doing homework that by the end of the school day I couldn't remember my name! Well a few things have been going on since I last posted.

• My friend and I decided that we want to do a duet for the talent show (if we have one at all this year). We can't actually agree on a song though. xD
• My dad flew to North Carolina for his work. They lost his luggage so that means he has to buy a whole bunch of new suits and stuff. They also lost his thousand doller camera. (the one time he decides to take it right?!) I feel really bad about it too because I had just heard my dad talking about how we have vurtually no savings. And I just got new clothes so it is my fault. Ug!!
• The kid H that I told you about. Remember, the one that screamed that question across the gym. Well no I sit across from him. It actually isn't that bad though. he is really funny and I had forgotten how blue his eyes were. Ok. That sounded really weird. xD I'm not in love with him. It was just a startling realization. The first thing he said was "oh you were in my third grade class weren't you? You were obssessed with "J" then. I mean it wasn't even a normal crush!!" I was like Omigosh! xD
• Quiznoz got busted!! *squeals* It was sooo hilarious. He called this kid like hispanic trash or something like that. So the kid got really mad and started yelling at him. He was all "Your rasict man and perverted!" xD So my teacher moved him to a different table! But it was just for that day :(
• B (the kid I used to like) and one of my semi-friends are going out. He asked her! I was kinda bummed but then I realized "Who needs guys anyways??"
• I am still waiting for my friends to enlighten my on why I "try to hard" and why I come off as "desperate". I would like to know people! It isn't going to break my heart if you tell me! At least I am not a slut like some of the girls at my school...
• Oh yeah. Speaking of slutty girls E and A and their little group of popular friends may get a recording contract!! All they did was re-write the lyrics to Katy Pery's I kissed a girl! Common people! That isn't real talent! A two year old could do that. Seriously! If you want reall talent look at me or leah or M!
• I need to break it to my mom that I can't drink Boost anymore. I found out that It makes you gain weight! I need to lose weight if I am going to become a model! But I don't know how to say that without sounding anorexic....hmmmm
• Speaking of being a model, I don't like my legs. They are getting heaps of cellulite! I need intense lipo or something!

Well I'm getting really tired so I will catch up on my Z's now. Night!

~E-Angel

Soccer Face-Off!!

Ok. There is this kid that sits across from me in art. He is perverted and retarded and bugs the hell outta me! I will call him Quiznoz. I said something weird and he replied something like "I could easily beat you up" and I was like "Yeah right". Then I was like "I could totally beat you at soccer!" and he said "suuuure...I bet you suck!" So I said "well my bff Marissa could beat you up" and he said "why is she like a man???" And I said "no but she is stronger than you!" and he is like "naw. she is probably some scrawny lil white chick"
So today Marissa, Leah, and I are gunna practice our soccer skillz at the park! xD
I am going to chalenge him to a soccer face-off on monday after school. I can't wait to see the expression on his face when he realized that Marissa could so beat him into the dirt! xD

~E-Angel

Stupid Tests!

Ugghhh!! I HATE tests!! I am not a test person. I will do really good on the homework and classwork, but fail the tests because the info just goes *whoosh* out of my head. I had an algebra test on tuesday and I thought I did really well. Apparently not. I got it back and I had a 77%!!! Gah!! Then I got a C or a D on my science test!! :(
~E-Angel

Holla Chicas!!

(and Chicos!) xD Wel I'm in a sort of happyish mood. I have kick-but accessories for tomorrow! xD Well I have to go work on a delf-portrait for art. My mom said it looked like a derranged chinese person. xD (No offense to anyone out there.) *sigh*

I also have a science project due this Friday that I haven't even started on...oops...xD I also have an oral speech to do. hmm Maybe I need to work on my time-management skills! xDD

Oh ya. Being the smart self that I am, I tried to put on a braclet waay too small for me. Now I have welts on my wrists...xD

Talk to Ya'll Later!
~E-Angel

"Desperate" and "Tries Too Hard"

More suckish stuff that I didn't have time to post yesterday:

Apparenty my friends think that I try "too hard". I am kind of confuzed and dissapointed. Confuzed because I am not sure why they think that I try too hard. And dissapointed because they only told me when I asked them. I may be going all "perfect movie life" on y'all but thoguht friends were suppoed to point out eachothers flaws. And trying too hard is a pretty big flaw! Don't get me wrong, I still luff 'em and I'm not mad. Just a little confuzzled...

I mean...I'm really confuzed as to what I'm doing wrong. I'm not one of the low-cut-top-wearing sluts like we have at my school. I just started wearing mascara, eye-shadow, and eyeliner! Now that I'm typing this I remember thart a few weeks ago my friend told me I acted desperate. (I had to ask her first. She didn't come out and tell me.)

Whatever. I can take a hint. None of the guys have responded to my "desperate" attempts to get a guy to like me. I can't even date anyways!! *sigh*

~E--Angel

P.S. Kwag I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at myself. *hugz*

Bitch-tastic Day

Well today sucked. That was probably an understatement. Some of it has to do with Ms. Bitch and some to do with three guys. I will call them C, H, and B.

Story #3 Involving Bitch:
I have a teensy crush on this guy named C. Just a tiny one though. He is in the grade about me and I only see him at lunch and in 5th period. Apparently Ms. Bitch was cold so she asked for his sweatshirt! They are just friends but still...

Story #4 Involving Bitch:
Leah confronted Ms. Bitch abut coughing on M today at lunch. Ms. Bitch denyed it once again. Then she got in Leah's face after Leah said "Why did you do that? You know her preformance assesment is tomorrow!" Ms. Bitch practically screamed "There was a mistake! It is Saturday now!"

Story #5 Involving Bitch:
After practice for Mamma I'm a Big Girl Now, I was waiting for my mom when Ms. Bitch came over. She asked for a ride home! I practically screamed "NOOOOO!" in my head. But I couldn't be mean so I said "Sure! Let me check with my mom." I asked my mom and she said yes!! Grrr!! Well I made her sit in the backseat anyways, but I still had to make polite conversation with her! *sigh*

H said WHAT!!!!:
At school there is this kid I will call H. The last time I talked to him was probably 4 years ago. I just found out from Leah that H screamed "Do you like E-Angel??" at B from across the gym. (B is this guy I liked last year. His bff S found out and told everyone in my 5th period. They teased me for days!) Well B said no and walked away. But I still don't know how he could have possibly found out that I had liked B last year! Either S told him or this othwer guy that was in my 5th period class. *sigh again!*

Hopefully tomorrow is better. I have a modeling class to go to!

~E-Angel

Dancing for Momma I'm a Big Girl Now

Grrrr....Ok to start it out you need to know the story from the begining. There is this one girl that I have known for about 5 years. She used to be nice...then she got bitchy. I never actually really liked her, but I couldn't just ignore her so I had to pretend to be her bff. "Secretly" (Pretty much everyone but her knows. Heck, pretty much everyone besides her parents hate her!) I loathe her now but anyhoo...on with the story(s) And by the way, if I say Bitch or Ms. Bitchy I am refering to that girl:

Story 1 Involving Bitch:
Ms. Bitchy has a fraternal twin. Her fraternal twin and I really are bffs (I will call her fraternal twin M.) So M has this big preformance/asesment thing for band tomorrow. She is a purcussionist so she and the two other pricussionists have their own song to do. It is a highschool level song and M has to be there.
Well Bitch was home sick two days ago. On Tuesday Ms. Bitchy choughed in M's face on purpose, even though Bitch knew about M's big preformance thing. M got sick yesterday and stayed at home today. When I confronted Bitch about coughing in M's face, Bitch denyed it all!!

Story 2 Involving Bitch:
So today after school we had choreograhy (dance) practice for our "Momma I'm a Big Girl Now" preformance/assesment. We have to stand in a V formation facing foward and a little to the left of the person in fron of us. Welll Bitch kept going to the left of the person in front of her, skrewing up the line. We tried to correct her three times but she kept going to the left! My teacher finally got fed up and put tape on the floor to show her/us where to stand. Ms. Bitchy still couldn't stand where she was told! Seriously!!! I wanted to slap her!!!

I have more to post but I'm going to have to do it later. My parents want me to start on my homework.

~E-Angel

Sorry...

I haven't posted for a while. It has been a busy few days. I better start doing my homework!
Be sure to check out leah and me's new blog (ya I know...bad grammar xD) It is called the supernatural" (no not the t.v. show)
~E-Angel

Good Morning Starshine...

the Earth says "hello!" xD Today I'm going to the movies to see Confessions of a Shopaholic!! xD It looks really funny. I will post more after I come back!!
~E-Angel

Hola!!

Hey peoplez!! Happy belated Vanentines Day! I didn't get a chance to post yesterday, but I got chocolates and expensive earrings. The I went to the mall and got some clothes for this other modeling thing that I'm doing. The thing is the clothes were really expensive. And I can only wear one thing to school!!

Oh well.....At least they are kewl!! Everything is black and white except the excessories....they are all hot red!!! Oh..And one dress it pink and orange! Seriously....if it was a person...I would marry it!! And I got the cutest pair of high-heels....they are black with silver buckle type things. For 4 inch heels they are really comfortable.

The pair that I really wanted were $550!!! But they would have matched perfectly!! The inside of the shoe was bright red and so was the heel. Then the body of the shoe was black and white zebra stripes!!!! *squeals* xD

~E-Angel

First Day With Contacts...

Well today was my first day with contacts.....not so great. Everyong said I looked different or weird. Some people didn't even notice that I wasn't wearing my glasses (wallflower much?) *sigh* oh well....my mom bought them and it isn't like I can return then or anything. Whatever....

Anyhoo....I'm sick....I think it is a head cold. *bleh* Not fun at all.

~E-Angel

Guten Morning!

xD Just wanted to say Good Morning to y'all! I finally put my contacts in. It took a little while and my mom had to put one in for me. It's probably because my eyes are puffy from crying....xD Smart right!! Anyhoo....I should probably get ready to leave for school!
~E-Angel

Great! :(

My dad says that I can't do the pagent!! I have already been accepted though!! And the people are already putting out advertizments for possible sponsors! grrr So apparently I got contacts for nothing.
gee
~E-Angel

Contacts!

*sings*
"I can see clearly now that my glasses are gone!" xD

As you can probably tell from my beautiflul singing and the title of my post...I got contacts!!
Yay! xD
They aren't colored :( but oh well!
~E-Angel

*squeals*

OMG!! I just made it into a Miss. Teen Pagent!!! Wish me luck!! I have the prettiest dress (for the formal wear part) and I have absoloutly no idea what to wear of the casual wear competition. If I win in my age group I could go on to National Miss. Teen!! They broadcast that on national tellie!!
*squeals*
xDD
...but the downside is that I have to raise about $500 in sponsorship money. At least my glasses will be out of the way. I am getting contacts tomorrow!!
~E-Angel

As a new blogger I thought I should write a poem. Im not very good so here goes:

A Poem

A Poem

Is like an essay

Annoying

And hard to write

*bows* xDD

~E-Angel

Grrrr

Ugghhh......My throat hurts. So I am probably coming down with something . *sarcasm* Yay!!! I hope I am better soon. I should probably take an Airbourne.....but they taste nasty xP Oh well. Time to do homework before my Mum, bro, and sis come back...
~E-Angel

Mamma I'm A Big Girl Now!?

Today we did choreography (sp?) for "Mamma I'm a Big Girl Now". It is a reall ycool sond that we are doing in show chorus. Leah (the friend I mentioned) hates dancing. So she was standing in the corner trying not to get people to notice that she wasn't shimmying (if that makes any sense to y'all) xD And I think I'm going phycik (sp?) Comment if you wanna know why!
I will post more later!
~E-Angel

First Post!!

Hello! xD Apparently in Webdings that means hello. My friend Leah made a blog so I thought what the hey! and made one too! It is getting kinds late but I will post more tomorrow! See Ya!
~E-Angel