Hey guys!!!

Sowwy I havent posted in a while. I was grounded from going on the pc because I had "bad grades". I had a low B in Algebra....big deal!

Anywhoo.....let me update you on what has bee going on in my life since I last posted.

1. I made the talent show at my school!! I am doing a solo!! I will be singing Bottle It Up by Sara Bareilles. The talent show is this coming Thursday so I will keep you posted.
2. I think I love Xgyxj. Not entirely sure. But he is moving schools next year so it doesn't matter anywhoo
3. I came down with bronchitis. It started this morning and I have been fighting it off all day. I may not be able to do the talent show if I don't get over this quickly.
4. I was asked out today!! This kid at my school that I barely know asked me out. I had to say no, one bacause I really don't know him. Two because my rents would kill me!!
5. I think that pretty much sums it up!!

I will post more tomorrow!!

~E-Angel

I hate this!!

I haven't had friends over tomy house in ages because it is soo messy! My mom doesn't really help and neither does the rest of my family. My sister is the worst. The makes it worst. But I get yelled at because I "don't pick up"! Yes I do! I pick up more than anyone! GAH!!

~E-Angel

Vows..

I vow never to try being outgoing again. I got H and J mad at me today and Gods know who else.

I vow to be go back to being a book-absorbed wall flower.

*sigh*
~E-Angel

What if....

What if I'm not destined to be famous? What if my ocupation will be mother, not actress or singer? It certainly seems that way! I think my friends were in pain when I was singing today. And of of my bffs is going to a recording studio and didn't invite me. She and C are going!

What if I'm not meant to be an outgoing person? I have tried to become one and I don't like it. I just hurt people...

What if I'm not meant to live this life? What if the reason that I can't see my future is because I don't have one?

What if I never find true love? I'm tired of reading all of these love stories and pretending I'm fine! I want to be someone's Bella or someone's Ever! But looks like I'm destined to be "that weird kid" or "the shy girl".

What if my brain wasn't skrewed up? What then?? Would I be popular?? Would I be a bitch?? A slut?? A Bella?? Is it because I'm the class weirdo that I will never be the girl in the romance novel?

~E-Angel

I am a completly horrible person!!

My friends "R" dated this guy last year and she still kinda likes him. You know the unspoken rule. You can't date/like your friend's ex w/o their permission. I have sat with him in science for the past moth or two and I realized I kinda like him. At the same time I kinda have a smalish crush on two other guys!!
And as if my life couldn't get skrewy enough I am depressed agian. I have Green Day cranked up really loud on my PC and am crying inside. gah! Why does my life have to be so fucking messed up?? (pardon my language!)
~E-Angel

Sad News....

I am really sad. My best guy friend's mom has cancer..again. "Ms. D" was just in the hospital for colin cancer. They removed the cancer and she got out without haing to do chemo. Now she is back in the hospital with thyroid cancer!! The thing is...people don't normally survive thyroid cancer. The doctors say they think they can remove it...but still....I feel horrible. She was like my second mum. Her daughter was like a less annoying little sister and her son is my best guy friend. I don't know what I will do if...
~E-Angel

Answers...

Here are some of the answrs to some of the questions i asked yesterday...

"who is "j"? xDwho'd he call hispanic trash?

because once you see a guy, you're like obsessed with him to the point where we get tired of hearing
his name. then when someone else finds out, instead of acting all embarassed, you (in essence i guess) go up to him and say OMG DO YOU LIKE ME CUZ I LIKE YOU AND I REAAAAAAAAAAALLY WANT TO GO OUT WITH YOU CUZ YOU'RE JUST SO AWESOME.

you asked.

E and A did what you would do if you were in their situation. plus when the dude hears the final copy, he'll say automatically no. believe me. xD

whatever cellulite is, you shouldn't care. you're just used to being superskinny from your stomach problem. you're fine. "

"J" is a kid that I haven't spoken to in years. End of story.

Thankz for telling me the truth *hugz*

Cellulite is body fat. I have too much!

"I wish you could have come and at least TRIED to control them. I'm really starting to not like either of them.I just wanna punch erin in the face. marissa too. but if i had a choice, i would punch erin first."

I with I could have been there too.

For all ya'll guys out there I asked Leah today if Erin hates me. Leah said that Erin thinks that I am a crazy werido so she hates me. Marissa agrees with everything Erin does when they are together. So even though Marissa and I are BFF's she hates me when they hang out. So they didn't invite me cuz they hate me.

Just for the record they made Leah pay for all the clothes they made her get! That is assinine! It is like $20 a shirt!!

~E-Angel